Its just so darn COLD!!! Today the high is 6!!! SIX, why is there class TODAY!!! Tonight its is going to drop below 20 degree!!! WHAT THE ****!!! Why is it SOOO COLD. Is Minnesota mad at me. What did I do!!!

Money, money, money and the lack there of is a pain in my neck. The most easy and simple solution to this problem is very simply WORK. And I enjoyed getting paid, really and at times I enjoyed working. But at my job there wasn't much for me to do. It was really boring but it had lots to do or even a little that kept me excited about work I would have left because the problem rest in the fact that Im LAZY and I procrastinate a lot. Its as if these two things are hard wired in my DNA.

And it's the same in school. I sometimes didn't go to class just because I didn't want to go. I slept and slept and slept some more. And got a D+ and an Incomplete in two of my classes. But the crazy thing and maybe even the sad thing about is I know I can do the work and do it well. Its just about doing it. Nothing in school is actually hard to the point of me not understanding except maybe Math. But its up to me. I do not will to be lazy and to procrastinate forever. Now is a great time to change it around!!

The best time for me in college thus far was the beginning or fall semester where I was organized, bills were paid on time, I kept my room cleaned, apart of five organizations and went to every meeting, meditated every morning, and was reading two books in my leisure time. And at the same time I was a successful student and living like I was a true man on his own and doing his thing. I know that it nobody fault but my own and I take responsibility for my actions. But the secret remedy for not being slothful, laziness, and procrastination is simply doing work.

Another thing is my bills I am $2, 652.19 in debt!!! This sum has grown greatly from last time I checked with late fees and all that jazz.
Medical Bills $1,548.80
Rent $800.00
Xcel $125.37
Charter $110.57
Tmobile $73.44

Now that's a bitch, all that money for a dislocated pinky finger!!!! But hey that life and my life at that. My college experience is so fun....NOT!!!

Ernest Langston

Monday

English 1:00-1:50

Math Concepts 2:00-2:50

Ethic Studies 3:00-4:30

Tuesday
English 1:00-1:50

Wednesday
English 1:00-1:50
Math Concepts 2:00-2:50
Ethic Studies 3:00-4:30

Thursday
English 1:00-1:50
Ethic Studies 2:00-4:45

Friday
English 1:00-1:50
Math Concepts 2:00-2:50

College is expensive as we all know.....But I think I put myself in this pickle

3 months behind in Rent...810

2 months behind in phone bill...133

3 months behind for xcel energy bill...90

3 months behind in internet bill......90

Medical bill for dislocated finger.....1200 (mind you I have no insurance!!!)

O and negative over 80 buck for overdrafting in both of my checking accounts

I doesn't help that I quit my job, and have no source of income. I did it to myself but thank goodness for understand landlords and loan money!!

It has come to my attention that as I grow older the joy and the excitment of Christmas fades away. This reality has come to no surprise to me, seeing that the lie's of Santa Clause, the reindeer, and the whole childhood fantasy has been shown to me.

It saddens my heart even so, that Christmas this year was just another day. i remember Christmas from yester year when you can literally feel the surge of expectation in the air. But all of that seems to have faded away. Its like everyone has lost the joy of Christmas. So where has it gone? What has happened to the Christmas that I remember as a child? Where did it go?

I see such a huge change even from last year but maybe that's another sacifice of getting older. Man growing up is not fun. Anyway Merry Christmas to all whom read this, for what it's worth.

Ernest Langston-Shelley