It has occured to me that in ministry you can get tired and become weary in well doing. It also occurs to me that if a person is promoted to ministry too quickly, too early and too pre-mature it can and does attract unclean spirits to them. So it is the case for me. I have been in ministry since the age of 14 and it has not been easy. Looking at it now, some of the attacks that I encountered was really due to the fact that I had no business being a minister at such an early age. I really didn't know what I was doing, where I was going or anything. So 4 years later I have come to the conclusion that I must forsake all that I know and find God, my God in a new light. Without the distraction of the office of a minister. I must find myself and my God before its too late. This is not a sabbatical as usual for I am forsaking everything to find the True God not what others have told me. It hasn't been easy coming to the conclusion but it must be done, for me and others whom I am responsible for. As this process begins I ask for your prayers like never before. Its going to be something but as I said before, it must be done.

Sincerely,

Ernest Langston-Shelley

As it was last year and it remains this year Happy Chrismahanukwanzakah everybody!!! 

I have come to the conclusion and thus the realization of this truth. This truth being something that I have thought, researched about, at times brought me great joy, hope, peace and at other times plagued my very existence. I have come to this resolve and conclusion for many different reasons. The main reason of course is the hunger and thirst for understanding.

Understanding is what then? Or, what is understanding? I have come to the resolution that in life sometimes things are not what they appear to be. (I'm going somewhere, stay with me now.) I have also come to question why on Earth do humans do such crazy things to one another, to helpless living organisms, and the world. What is the meaning and reasoning behind all of these happenings? Life is more than music, work, school, relationship, sex, drinking etc. I know that there is a God somewhere and he had to equip us with more intelligence than is shown.

So then what should I stop attending college, stop working, stop hanging out with friends, stop loving and seeking love. Of course not, so many people get to this very same point and then stop and go back to the mundane level of consciousness. There is greatness lock in each and every one of us and I'm not talking about material wealth or the like. I'm talking about more. I want to go deeper than the surface. I want more out of life than what most people have had. You know, I know I'm different. Some call me a lame, weird, and all other things. And to tell the truth I embrace that for that tells me that I'm doing something right.

Thoughtfully yours,

Ernest Langston-Shelley

There are many things I am thankful to Minnesota for. In this state I have grown from being a child to a Man. In this state I have recieve a great high school education (from Wayzata High School, Go Trojans WOW!!!). I have began college, had great relationship both personal and professional. In this very state I have grown exponentially as it pertains to my spititual walk with God. In this state I have began to know who I am as a person, son, brother, student, friend, nephew, minister, boyfriend (somewhat), and the list goes on. But one, just one thing in particular that I just can not stand about Minnesota is the WEATHER. Thats right, Minnesota weather doesn't know what it wants to do. Some days its 90 degrees and in that very same day, a few hours later it can drop 50 degrees!!!! In the summer there is nothing but construction and in the winter there is nothing but ice and black ice on the streets so driving is a pain in any season. O by the way there is no fall or spring just road construction time and Winter. O this state is a great one but man I cant wait to finish college Im going East.

One Love,

Minister Ernest Langston-Shelley

For the purpose of not seeming too overtly anger about going to the club I will omit some events and words that has conspired over the past few weeks. I am a very religious person who is very dedicated to God and at times too dedicated. So dedicated to the point that I neglect my friendship because I feel that there being in my life will hinder my spiritual growth and maturity. Also, I have been to a club, a big club and was too overwhlemed with the amount of people, smelly odors, closeness of others, and the whole bumping thing didn't work for me. I have told my friends over and over about these two truths but it still doesn't deter them from asking me out to Rum Runner's every Tuesday night. May I also add that I have a 9 o'clock class on Wednesday. Call me crazy but the whole darn reason I am in College is to get a degree and make good grades. With all four, count them four reasons, I am still looked down on by my friends because I do not go out to the club with them. -What kind of name is Rum Runners away!!!!!- Despite this in all of my ignorance and stupidity I promised them that I would go this one Tuesday night. O the humanity for that one. I haven't lived that one down and probably won't. I have come to the point in this fight that I just dont want to see them or have anything to do with them because for 1 I will be called a loser, called a lier, stupid, dumb and all other names that I just dont need to hear. So friends what should a guy like me do?

One Love,

Ernest "The Great" Langston-Shelley